Thursday, February 18, 2010

shattered by the fall...

Sometimes, more often than not lately, I sit at my new job, look around at the people working, the people actually doing ministry and thoughts come into my head about how I'm not actually doing ministry. What is my ministry anyway? I sit here and jump up whenever someone actually needs something? What good am I really? I get people drinks, I close the door to keep the cold out, I file stuff, I put things in folders. What good am I? I apparently can't cut straight even when I have a cutter. I'm trying not to feel useless, but I'm not really doing very much. I know that I'm capable of more but what am I doing now? Do I need to be doing something now besides reading, getting to know the staff, and loving on them? Is that my only ministry? Can I handle more or am I just not ready yet?

These thoughts are not healthy.....

This song is healthy....

Carried To The Table

Wounded and forsaken
I was shattered by the fall
Broken and forgotten
Feeling lost and all alone
Summoned by the King
Into the Master’s courts
Lifted by the Savior
And cradled in His arms

I was carried to the table
Seated where I don’t belong
Carried to the table
Swept away by His love
And I don’t see my brokenness anymore
When I’m seated at the table of the Lord
I’m carried to the table
The table of the Lord

Fighting thoughts of fear
And wondering why He called my name
Am I good enough to share this cup
This world has left me lame
Even in my weakness
The Savior called my name
In His Holy presence
I’m healed and unashamed

You carried me, my God
You carried me

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